i'm mr. lonely
lonely, i'm mr. lonely. i have no body of my own... ay! mali!! nobody of my own pala!! hehe. [oh! wrong! it should be "nobody of my own."]
I meant that as a joke in my ym status tonight. I am a girl and it says mister, and if I had no body, I would only be a head. But it tells what happened to me during the Baccalaureate.
I went to the gymn, finding out that my classmates have brought their parents over. I can't just barge in on their quality time together. So I went around to look for other friends. I found some. But they were all going off somewhere I don't want to follow. I found company and lost it. That happened around twice or thrice... I finally sat with Nadine on the verge of tears.
I never felt so lonely.
I saw my mom sitting on one side of the place so I went over. After the awarding ceremonies, Mama said, "Ano? Pwede na bang umalis? Tapos na diba? [So, can I go now? It's finished right?]" Mom, I know you have things to do in the office... But are you going to leave me when I thought you will be permanent company for the day?
I cried then and there.
Maybe the loneliness started a few weeks before (yeah, grad song practice) when I noticed that everybody had someone to talk to. I was only a tag-along. I didn't mind it then.
But... The baccalaureate celebration was in semiformal attire. I wore slacks and a blouse. Then I saw what all the other people wore. Yeah, some of them wore something like the outfit I wore, but most of them wore outfits that were a lot more formal. For crying out loud, did I wear the wrong outfit? I became conscious. Yeah, I became conscious. Combine that with the loneliness that I felt since two weeks ago, it can make you cry. Mix in also the event that i found and lost company... yeah I really cried.
I cried in front of my mother. I cried on Jean. I cried on Ginnieboom...
Good thing Ate Tin invited me to sing in the choir. Something to lift my spirits up finally, or else I would have continued crying all day.
I never felt so lonely. Just thinking about the feeling can make tears drop.
I meant that as a joke in my ym status tonight. I am a girl and it says mister, and if I had no body, I would only be a head. But it tells what happened to me during the Baccalaureate.
I went to the gymn, finding out that my classmates have brought their parents over. I can't just barge in on their quality time together. So I went around to look for other friends. I found some. But they were all going off somewhere I don't want to follow. I found company and lost it. That happened around twice or thrice... I finally sat with Nadine on the verge of tears.
I never felt so lonely.
I saw my mom sitting on one side of the place so I went over. After the awarding ceremonies, Mama said, "Ano? Pwede na bang umalis? Tapos na diba? [So, can I go now? It's finished right?]" Mom, I know you have things to do in the office... But are you going to leave me when I thought you will be permanent company for the day?
I cried then and there.
Maybe the loneliness started a few weeks before (yeah, grad song practice) when I noticed that everybody had someone to talk to. I was only a tag-along. I didn't mind it then.
But... The baccalaureate celebration was in semiformal attire. I wore slacks and a blouse. Then I saw what all the other people wore. Yeah, some of them wore something like the outfit I wore, but most of them wore outfits that were a lot more formal. For crying out loud, did I wear the wrong outfit? I became conscious. Yeah, I became conscious. Combine that with the loneliness that I felt since two weeks ago, it can make you cry. Mix in also the event that i found and lost company... yeah I really cried.
I cried in front of my mother. I cried on Jean. I cried on Ginnieboom...
Good thing Ate Tin invited me to sing in the choir. Something to lift my spirits up finally, or else I would have continued crying all day.
I never felt so lonely. Just thinking about the feeling can make tears drop.
posted by Kate at Tuesday, March 29, 2005
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