Nothing in particular about Life

Why did I type in such a title? I don't know. It's more because of my usual state of mind these days. I usually think about life and its complexities.

Like, "The only permanent thing is change." How very ironic. Yes it's a paradox. I can't do anything about it.
Also the fact that everything has an opposite. Is there any one object in the whole universe that does not have any counterpart? Good and evil, white and black, up and down, positive and negative... things like that. At least sa physics may red shift, na walang counterpart na blue shift. Basta!

Those are not the only things that I think of these days. I even asked the question, what is the opposite color of red?

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Anyway, I have an 512Mb mp3 player flashdrive. I love it.

Of Divisoria and Storms.

Singit lang: nakakaasar, may ipis na lumlipad sa kwarto, so nakatayo ako nagtatype para madaling tumakbo. I hate roaches.

I and my sister went to Divisoria today. I think i mentioned before that Mama gave us a thousand pesos each to buy new clothes. She gave us 500 more each. Hehe. The thought that I chose my own clothes and took money from my own pocket made me feel really good. The thought that I can decide to choose my shorts, those that may show out my own clothing style. Really, it feels nice. Of course the money is not completely mine. But the thought that I can shop around on my own two feet (with my sister) and choose what to buy and what not makes me feel incredibly grown up. Now that i think of it, the feeling is childish.

Anyway, over all the stuf that I bought, I have 7 new shirts/blouses, 3 new jeans, a new pair of jogging pants and a toothbrush. Which one is the odd one out? The toothbrush, of course. I bought to toothbrush because I lost my toothbrush at home.

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Oh, the silent war is lost. Haha, and I feel pretty happy because relationships just can't get better. My parents just seem so lenient in everything. They freely give us most of the things that we need and want. Sometimes they give us things for no reason at all.They are not so tight like before. This feels weird, but it's nice because we don't quarrel as much.

But my sister thinks otherwise. She said it may be the "calm before the storm." For me, it may be the happy time after the storm. I don't know what kind of storm she was expecting. Maybe we are thinking of two different storms. I look on the past one, and she looks on the future one. The one that I was thinking of was family quarrel storm. My sister thinks of financial problem storm. Perhaps my family will soon undergo the financial problem storm. Of course we, the older pair of sisters, have to help out. I hope I can prepare well enough if it is coming.

But I hope it doesn't come. I don't really know.

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You'd think the title means two parts about the same thing. Actually, it is, if you think literally of this entry. But they are two different things all their own.

it didn't even last one week.

You know the big mess I talked about last time? It didn't last for more than a week. But I think it did a great deal of good because I and my elder sister don't quarrel with our mother as much as before the big mess. It's like having lifted some layer obscurity within the family. Following orders from Mama doesn't seem as difficult, although sometimes, it can be really unreasonable.

You wanna know what happened? I don't know who did it. But somebody said it should be mother, not father who should give us our allowance. Of course we need our allowance. When we asked for it (accompanied by a lot of dread), she couldn't just hand it over and stop herself from giving a two-sentence sermon. The sermon consisted of: you should do your responsibilities here at home, not just asking for everything you need from us. Ok, It was consisted of only one sentence. But, you know, it was enough to break the silent war spell.

Last saturday, I asked permission from my father to got to school to study for an upcoming long test. I need to read the books that can only be found in UP. He told me that I may go, but I have to ask permission from mother too. You what she did? She gave me a thousand pesos to shop for clothes, and a hundred pesos fare for the day. It's only now that I see the good that sales can do. (SM was having a three day sale). As I said, I had to study so I resisted going to sm. I only went there on sunday night to buy clothes. I and my sister got there almost at closing time. I managed to buy two shirts for Php120 each.
And you know what? Buying my own clothes feels really good. That was the first time that I ever shopped for clothes without the guidance and money of my mother. (Technically, it was my mother's money. But I get to be the one to draw money from my pocket to purchase clothes!) She usually accompanies us, me and all my sisters, to buy clothes.
Wala lang. Good news.