About my birthday.

I'm gonna be 18! I will be of legal age 3 days from now. I believe I should be happy.

The only things keeping me from being happy right now is this damned mp2 and the math53 finals on 29. If those things were over, I'd have my peace of mind and be happy. But it seems that all i will be able to do on my birthday is sleep. I have math finals on the day before my birthday. And before that I have this stupid mp2.

Maybe I'll just happily sleep... and rest. I'm already swaying here.. and my sight is geting fuzzy.

About being 18 years old... I'd get frustrated if my parents still don't set me free. I'm not freely allowed to spend simple overnights elsewhere. Even just staying out late makes them go berserk. Well.. I AM already frustrated.

About this blog.. I think I'll just change the title and continue using it. I find blogspot comfortable.

machine problem 2

really now.. i give up. i give up trying to think of the solution on my own. i am going to start basing some parts of my code on some other person's. I will copy snippets and greatly alter them so that my prof will not know.

and file processing is so... beyond my reach.

unwinding... From Jowi's Blog (which says it comes form Kate09's blog)

[x] broken a promise
[x] made a new friend
[x] fell in love [uhmmm.....]
[x] fell out of love
[ ] done something you swore never to do [i don't remember]
[x] lied [heck, who didn't?]
[x] stole
[x] went behind your parents back
[x] cried over a broken heart [really]
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hidden a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] got arrested
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars [whoo!]
[x] gotten in a fight
[x] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ] almost died
[ ] drank myself retarded
[ ] lost someone close to you
[x] been to the hospital
[x] gotten closer to someone
[ ] streaked
[x] cried over someone
[ ]broken up with a gf or bf [never had one]
[ ] given up something important to you [i don't think so]
[x] talked on the phone all night *and YM too*
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] made a total fool of myself
[x] met great people

machine problem 2

Rar! my machine problem is so difficult! in comparison to other classes, our mp is pretty easy. But our teacher wants us to use linked lists! Other classes can do it at their option.

To clarify, this machine problem (aka MP) is for our eee 11 subject (programming fundamentals). We're using the C programming language.


The syntax is so difficult to follow. Damn.

something to do.

Alam nyo ba na sobrang tinatamad na ako? sobraaaaaaaaaaa... ampotek.. marami akong kelangan gawin pero ito ginagawa ko.

i got this somewhere:

the instructions are:

bold things which u are
italicize things u wish u are
and dont do anything to the rest

or something.

* I miss somebody right now. [hmm. cno kaya.. :))]
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes. As opposed to constantly. [i dont fucking curse every bloody sentence.]
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex. [eeww]
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
* I'm a pretty good dancer.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex. [in front of the one i like]
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved. [what the frig is an away message?]
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal Blogger, you biatches.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friend.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Conservative Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. [what's the diff??]
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals. [???]
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. [ha.]
* I cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
* I have been to over 15 conventions.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. [not father, mother]
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. [bold, bold.. and double-bold]
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry that something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. [reminds me of miriam]
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand typed all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. [coool.]
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I am a virgin. [ooops.]
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am intrigued with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* Wishes people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to have a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I occasionally cling to someone's boobehs... online.
* I have fallen out of a tree.
* I am possessive of my friends.
* I made a gay couple in the SIMS, and they sleep together too.
* I am going through a potentially life-changing dilemma as of this writing.
* Nerd.
* People complain of the smallness of my handwriting.
* I know all the lyrics of 80% of all NSYNC's songs.
* I get to flunk almost 85% of my grades for one quarter.
* I can successfully twirl a pen. [oh yeah!]
* I wouldn't really mind if I learn later on that my husband is bi/gay

Nearing the semester end...

The last time I was really able to post was New Year. That's more than 2 months ago. This time I can really say that I haven't updated this blog for a long long time.

You know why I'm really on the internet right now? I am searching for articles that we can reprint in our magazine project for EEE 31. I have to get some nice articles that we can include in our magazine.

AND... I have lots of things to do! it's only two weeks before the end of the sem! Can't we just get the two weeks done without any problems? Of course, the teachers have to give us all the requirements that we have to do so that they can properly grade us. Do you understand what I'm saying? MOST teachers decided to dump the requirements at us starting two weeks ago. I'm talking about the bulk of the semestral requirements. But you know, I can't blame them because they have a job to give us grades. (At least having these requirements as basis for grades is better than nothing. Better than the teachers grading us on purely biased basis.)

I have to make a reaction/reflection paper for comm 3 about the two plays that we were required to watch. The point of the paper is to show Mam TP that I have learned something from the plays, so i have to write the things that the plays made me think about. Maybe it requires some time to think about.

I have to make another Machine Problem for EEE 11. (I was able to do the first one, but it was done rather crudely. I want to do this one better.) EEE 11 is my programming subject. We use the C programming language. This second MP involves linked lists and file input/output. (Maybe it's better if you try not to understand this jargon.) I really wish I had some background on this programming language because I'm pretty much lost. I just try my best.

Oh, I have quite a problem in EEE 11. I have only three long exams: three chances to get nice grades. I failed the first one, sa tagalog: PLAKDA. And I don't think I'll pass the second exam. So I hope I can perfect the last exam. Really. Badly. I need this. If I fail this lecture somponent of EEE11, even if I get both machine problems perfect, I still fail.

For Chemistry, I have a few more experiments to do, make pre-labs and post-labs, and one more long exam. God help me.

Math. Help me. I'm lost in integrals. I've done this before but I'm suddenly lost. It's mainly because (Yes, I've performed a sin) I cut math last friday so that I can finish the chem problem set.


That's all my subjects. My main concern for this week is EEE 31, the project AND the coming long exam this friday.

I really wish that the next two weeks is over.