finally

Finally, this blog fits its title. "I'm 17" yeah! Today is my birthday and I am so happy (guess why)... Today is also my graduation. Happy happy...

Now this blog is valid. I will post here until my 18th birthday. haha.

Then I'll probably make another blog, but i can't make a new blog every year. The "i'm 16" and the "i'm 17' blogs will provide practice for the one that I will use my whole life. Just maybe.

<^-^>kate

i'm mr. lonely

lonely, i'm mr. lonely. i have no body of my own... ay! mali!! nobody of my own pala!! hehe. [oh! wrong! it should be "nobody of my own."]

I meant that as a joke in my ym status tonight. I am a girl and it says mister, and if I had no body, I would only be a head. But it tells what happened to me during the Baccalaureate.

I went to the gymn, finding out that my classmates have brought their parents over. I can't just barge in on their quality time together. So I went around to look for other friends. I found some. But they were all going off somewhere I don't want to follow. I found company and lost it. That happened around twice or thrice... I finally sat with Nadine on the verge of tears.

I never felt so lonely.

I saw my mom sitting on one side of the place so I went over. After the awarding ceremonies, Mama said, "Ano? Pwede na bang umalis? Tapos na diba? [So, can I go now? It's finished right?]" Mom, I know you have things to do in the office... But are you going to leave me when I thought you will be permanent company for the day?

I cried then and there.

Maybe the loneliness started a few weeks before (yeah, grad song practice) when I noticed that everybody had someone to talk to. I was only a tag-along. I didn't mind it then.

But... The baccalaureate celebration was in semiformal attire. I wore slacks and a blouse. Then I saw what all the other people wore. Yeah, some of them wore something like the outfit I wore, but most of them wore outfits that were a lot more formal. For crying out loud, did I wear the wrong outfit? I became conscious. Yeah, I became conscious. Combine that with the loneliness that I felt since two weeks ago, it can make you cry. Mix in also the event that i found and lost company... yeah I really cried.

I cried in front of my mother. I cried on Jean. I cried on Ginnieboom...

Good thing Ate Tin invited me to sing in the choir. Something to lift my spirits up finally, or else I would have continued crying all day.

I never felt so lonely. Just thinking about the feeling can make tears drop.

early morning blues..

Technically, I'm not yet 17 yrs old. But I'll start posting anyway. My birthday is less than 24 hours away.

It's 4:06am and I am on the net sooooo early. You know why? I can't sleep because of a headache. Normally, I can fight headaches by going to sleep. But this time I can't. It's a dull throbbing at the back of the head that is soooo annoying. Frickin' hell, this time I need to take medicine. And it's not working yet.

*sigh* What else can I do on the internet? Post on my new blog. Make a new template. Maybe I'll take a look at Eugene's blog (http://secondsoliloquy.blogspot.com). He has nice things there. Gagaya ako.. hehe

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Eugene has a tagboard, a second blog to draft his template, many links... I want a tagboard too. But i don't need a draft blog. Lots of links, why not? hehe.

I want to make a homepage. I don't remember all the things that I do on the net. So I thought, maybe i can make a hompage where i can link in all the pages that i ordinarily visit. So that whenever i connect to the net, i only have to open one page and POOF! All the pages i need are just clicks away. hehe.

But i have a really big problem... I don't know much about html. And, I don't know how to edit my template. *sigh* I sort of wish that i could go back in time and take up WebDev as my comp sci.. grr. whoever said i wanted to take up database? I just didn't know what i really wanted to do with computers. At least now i want to do something.. Maybe i can just get Athina to teach me. >:)

I'm blabbering right? Haha, I don't mind blabbering. Just look at the Title of this post! It says "early morning blues.." So right.

Oh, jsut tell you my current life. I'm graduating high school (technically on my birthday, that's what makes it so special) and I will have a Baccalaureate thingie later on. Breakfast at 7am, a program called "A Toast of Excellence" from 8-10am, then the Baccalaureate service at 10 probably. Freedom aftewards.

That is, if you call trying to get cleared freedom. It really isn't because I know that I may still be liable for something at the school which may cause problems later on. But it gives me some reason to go out. Right now I'm waiting for my research teacher to email me our research paper with all her comments and stuff. I have to edit that paper, email it to ma'am for approval than print it, get it hardbound at UP and submit it with al the other stuff. Getting cleared is a tedious annoying task, especially if you have a teacher who edits papers so slowly... She has checked all those papers already, she has given us a grade, what's wrong woth the darned paper that needs editting? I really wonder... Other than that I still have other problems.

Soccer club, we lost so many soccer balls. we have to replace them. Good thing the club has funds. Money won't be a problem. But will we ever get to buy them? I hope so. I also need the Property office's signature. I have to return the borrowed toga, perhaps right after graduation. Will I be cleared on time for the card giving? Doesn't look like it.

But it will give me reason not to get me card on cardgiving on Mar 31. I have to get the card, get myself ready for the graduation ball in 2 hours if I get my card. If i don't get my card, i'll have the whole day. But i remember, oh no! the second batch of the prom pictures will be released on the same day! I have to go to school to order my pictures, just to get the darr thing over with.. (06, what took you so long to release those pictures?) But maybe I can do that in the morning.

It's 5am already. I'm already feeling hungry. I have to get ready. Bye.

disclaimer

Okay.. I put a link in my sidebar that leads to a page about Blogger's Disclaimer. It's really nice, it's says stuff about blogger-reader interaction... I really thank the person who made this page.

At least something good is happening to my blog. Does anybody out there have any suggestion on what else to put on my blog or what it should look like? Make comments on my entries or email me songsky17@yahoo.com. Please also tell me how to do it.. I probably wouldn't know how. Now I'm thinking that maybe i should have taken WebDev as my compsci, not database.

Thank you for taking the time, if you do, to help me on my blog.

1st entry

hallooooo.... first entry. this blog is gonna be boring..